we're only liars but we're the best

ah i almost crashed today
stupid truck
i just hope my subconcious does not take over and make me crash
because that would be bad

anywho

i had strange dreams last night
but i cannot remember them
YOU were probably in it

because i think lots of people were in the dreamss

i miss youuououououou all of you

aye aye
i am listening to a song called cats in heat
it is a good song
you could never know that it was about cats in heat
until you hear him scream cats in heat
but i do not think the song is even about cats in heat
eh
i got to drive in the rain today
i am not that bad of a driver
really i do not think so
but anyway
i just decided i would update this
because i felt it needed it
i think i might start neglecting my myspace
because i just do not like it that much anymore
but never my livejournal
so you should go there for more recent occurrances
my livejournal is good
myspace not so much
ha the advertisment says if i hit a bear i get a free psp!
ha those bears are attractive
they are blue and have flashing targets on them
this amuses me
i would like to sit here and watch them while a new song called new star in the sky comes on
and i might and tell you of the days
lately i have been sitting alone in my room
in the dark
watching indie films and strange films at that
and also teen drama shows
and degrassi
but that is a given
and fuse has kind of died on me
i feel dead
music does not seem to make me happy anymore
and i am not sure it did
i think that it just gave me something to share with other people
but since no one has been around for me to share with...
well then i cannot very well share
yes well
oh well
ha ha the time of my life this has been
(note that to be cynical laughter)

I am wating for something to happen
           right this song to come on called universal traveler

mmmhhmm

today was my last day of school and i should be happier
but i am not really sure i can be happy
because for a month
i will be doing nothing
until july, when i will come to indiana!
(you cheer now)
but yes..right
i watched this weird movie called "the broken hearts club" i think that was it
but it was about gay people and it was interesting
my parents keep calling me gay because they will not let me go to boys' houses without my brother and so i stay at home, because he does not want to go anywhere, watching next on mtv with gay people or movies about gay people
psh it is not my fault that is all that is on television
or that i am even watching television
bitch
 hunjalksjklj boo love me love pretend that you love  me need me need ...blah do not know the rest

mmm kay err ah

lani said i have to update so now i shall...mm mm it is raining

my parents are being bastardly

my brother is a fucking asshole

i want july to be here

but i do not want it to be this hot because it is deathly uncomfortable

i miss world studies actually

i was thinking about it today

and i learned so much more

and it was nice

we had a fire drill today

that was eh

i am cold now because the air conditioning is blowing on me

i am lonely

i want to go to donald's house but i cannot

because "my brother is not going"

ger damnit

i think i will go to sleep early

or maybe do my homework more thoroughly

but i do not want to

jam fest whoo

on saturday

that should be lotsa fun

well actually i am not sure it will be

because i have not had very much fun for a while

none none none

i really need a hobby

i think i might start sewing

but my mom is preventing me from that because she wants me to help her clean the garage before she will give me her sewing machine
shit that is what

mooo

moo

more later?

yeah fo sho

sorry lani for all the swearing and shizz but i am angry?

wow oh my...i have not updated in a long long while...righto

so i live in north carolina now

school is out in two months

this makes me happy

nothing new

well there is

but i just do not want to tell you